Saturday, June 9, 2012

It's amazing to me when you are really aware of something the Lord is putting in front of you.   For the past week I have been coming across scriptures, hearing from people, or reading online the same message over and over. Here's what I learned am learning: It does not matter what we want, need or plan for our lives. If it is not the Lords plan, it will not work. Period.  It's that simple. Now if only my brain would register this daily, life would be so much easier.

Here's how it started. Hubby and I are trying for our first baby. Exciting!! right? well, yes however the more months that go by, the more excitement turns to frustration. We have not been trying too long, less than a year and believe me I know that is not very long compared to some. But, I have been praying every day that the Lord blesses us with a baby. I have been holding these verses close to my heart for months: psalm 37:3-7a

Trust in the Lord, and do good;
Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness.
Delight yourself also in the Lord,
And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord,
Trust also in Him,
And He shall bring it to pass.

While I was reading this again the other night, my bible referenced me to Psalm 145:19~
          He will fulfill the desire of those who fear Him;

I was so happy to come across this and thought, When I have baby, then I'll be so happy! 

During this past week after realizing several times that my plan will never work if it is not the Lord's will for me, I came across this:
For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also~ Mat.6:21

And I thought, where is my treasure? Is it only in the hope that I will have a baby? Shouldn't my treasure be in the Lord, honoring Him? Willingly following Him in obedience, and treasuring the fact that I will spend eternity with Him? 

Yup! there came the wave of strong conviction and tell you the truth, it has helped me SO much! I then, in this last week alone, came across these 3 verses: 
James 4:13-15
13 Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will[a] go to such and such a city, spend a year there, buy and sell, and make a profit”; 14 whereas you do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away. 15 Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we shall live and do this or that.” 

Proverbs 19:21
Many are the plans in a person’s heart,
    but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.

Proverbs 27:1
Do not boast about tomorrow,
    for you do not know what a day may bring.

See the pattern? I think the Lord is trying to tell me something and guess what? I finally got the message!
He loves us so, so much and has our best interest in all He does.  It doesn't matter what I want or hope for. I need to listen to Him and delight myself in Him. He is so faithful and loving towards us all. He knows the desires of my heart but He also knows His entire plan for my life. I don't. If it is the Lord's will for me to be a mother, I will. If not, I will faithfully trust and love Him still! His tender mercies are always upon us. His greatness is beyond compare.

Psalm 145:1-3
I will extol You, my God, O King;
And I will bless Your name forever and ever.
Every day I will bless You,
And I will praise Your name forever and ever.
Great is the Lord, and greatly to be praised;
And His greatness is unsearchable

Every day! I will praise Him every day, forever and ever! Not just when I think things are going my way. I looked up the definition for unsearchable and it says, unable to be clearly understood.  We can't even fathom just how great the Lord is! 

So, while I still desire to have a baby, my perspective has changed and perspective makes a huge difference! I am praying for a baby still, but praying that I would have a baby if it is the Lords will for me.  I am sure some days will still be hard and frustrating but, I know in my heart I will never be disappointed if I trust in Him. 


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  1. Leah, I loved this post! This is the same the Lord has been teaching me since I lost my baby. He knows best and some things are meant to be in a way that does not fit our ideals, but He is still in charge. I find this difficult to practice but He is loving and merciful.
    Thanks for the inspiration to live according to His purposes, not ours!

    1. Hello sweet Johanna,
      Thank you for reading and for your kind words. I am praying for you dear sister!!